Eat food, enjoy who you're with.
I was going to see The Road tonight, and as UN-holiday as it may seem, I suspect it's the perfect movie to see right now.
Been a little lonely since I moved into my own place, I thought my social life would pick up and it hasn't. When I visit or go to movies with friends that are married or in relationships, I have found myself put in the middle of their "wedded bliss" more often than not, witness to their arguing and mind games and body language that is just....So awkward. Really pisses me off, in fact. I'm glad I am single, more than ever, but at the same time, I feel more disconnected than ever.
After years of going through the motions, I left AA for good this year, fed up with other people's trying to meddle with my life or who to work for or whjat to demand, etc etc etc. Sorry, need to cut loose all those sick people, thinking they're spiritual and yet "God's Chosen" and trying to fix other people's lives. So over that shit. I'm fine. I had a problem with the white stuff. No longer. I was never a drunk. And these days I enjoy a nice little glass of red wine with dinner. Maybe some 420, too. I feel more normal than ever.
People in my life this year have been losing it, their lives seeming to collapse. I feel colder and more distant, and maybe a need to be kinder to others.
Holidays get me this way, sorry.
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Didn't you promise to stop posting?*
*Okay, I don't really want you to stop posting. Your dry humour amuses. What's even more amusing is that sometimes, I think it's unintended.